Discernment is NOT research.
Discernment is NOT playing a role trying to deceive someone to give you information to fill in a “post” that in its declarative nature is to “warn,” but ends up being gossip and backbiting.
Discernment is NOT in a group of people who agree on a particular hot topic of the day to give the appearance that they are looking out for the flock, when in reality it’s self serving and self seeking to perpetuate the “appearance” of good when it is often really double handed and more misdirection.
Discernment is NOT transferred from one believer to another like a “mantle.”
Discernment is NOT reporting on the obvious.
Discernment is NOT finger pointing.
Discernment is NOT airing dirty laundry.
Discernment is NOT begrudging.
Discernment is NOT blasting away at people and their loved ones for the sake of having hits to a website.
Discernment does NOT cost anything and should not be followed by a “Donate” button.
Discernment does NOT have blogs, does NOT speak at churches all year long, does NOT collect frequent travel miles, does NOT receive “love offerings,” and does NOT have a reputation.
Discernment is NOT in a place or a person, it is NOT limited to a select group or network of people.
Discernment is NOT limited to human understanding.
Discernment is NOT knowing about secret societies and vast conspiracies.
Discernment is NOT a learned technique or one that can be taught.
Discernment is NOT a feeling, not a mystical experience, it’s not an “energy” or an “aura.”
Discernment does NOT gather or heap unto itself teachers and/or followers.
Discernment. It’s the blood that runs through the vein of many blogs lately. I understand the desire and burden to share and want to warn my fellow brethren about the dangers that abound out there in the church today. I grieve over the sorry state of the Church, God’s people, who have fallen away. I can get caught up in the hype just as easily as the next person to butter the term “Discernment” over something that is done in the flesh. I apologize to my readers, and ask you to forgive me for fleshing out and speaking in emotion rather than using a more spiritual method of exhortation. I’m referring to my previous post. The Lord has led me to a place of repentance and I know I went about it the wrong way. I cannot be used of God when my heart spews out anger and bitterness towards my former “Church” (Calvary Chapel). I’ve spent the weeks since my last post seeking His face and His direction. I love my LORD! He’s so forgiving and patient with me. His grace is unyielding and I know HE loves me. I know He loves me when He answers prayer only I know I’ve asked. Like Nathanial whom He saw under the tree, there have been things God pointed to and answered questions that I only asked in my heart. I’ve had questions about this blog, about His people, about my brethren, and His very word and how it applies to me; and lo He answered.
I recently told a friend that every time in the past when I’ve wanted to abandon my blog it was always over the same single reason, I would get in the flesh and get in the way of the work God was doing. I would begin to think the failure of the people to discern was my ineptitude to convey the tragedy and the error of others ways. I became the “acting” Holy Spirit and this is always wrong to do. I’ve never claimed to be a “Discernment” website. I don’t believe there is such a thing. I’m not a “Watchman (woman).” I’m just a geek. I’m a nerd, a dumb sheep, bleating my way through this world as a pilgrim trying to stay focused on my Savior and Lord and wishing things weren’t as bad as they appear, because they do look really bad sometimes from my perspective.
My life isn’t bad. I am truly blessed. I have a beautiful marriage, family, home, and yes, this grubby girl even gets to fellowship with other believers in a strong bible believing church. What do I have to complain about? Nothing. I have good health. My children have good health. I’m not in want of anything! Glory to God! He alone is Good and is the provider of all. So, why revisit such a nasty and painful past as my time in CC, and why revisit what they are up to these days? I have been given that answer. God delivered me out of that place, and I need to let it go completely. I need to stop picking up the topic and giving it credence in my life. My God is big enough, bigger than, the problems in CC; and, my perspective is NOT needed to make a dent in that arena. Yes, there are false teachers there. Yes, there are false ‘discerners’ who give the appearance that they are working to warn others about CC when they really work ‘for‘ CC. It’s not my job to warn you of all that. The Holy Spirit can sort it out without me. Thank God!!! Lol, you may be laughing at me right about now and saying, “wow N4TM is very self-absorbed if she thought she was at all responsible to be the movement’s sole “Warner,” and yes, it is pretty pathetic I agree! I never said I wasn’t pigheaded. I have an ego the size of my insecurities I guess. I would like to move on with my life and although I KNOW there are people who are going to revisit and poke around this website looking through all my previous Calvary Chapel posts to poke holes in my credibility, or some who are on a quest to find out the error of CC; whatever the reason for the concentrated hits to my CC posts, I will not pick the thing up and “go there.” I’m finished with the CC topic. I don’t know what that means for the future of this blog. Do I continue to post on other things? Do I walk away entirely? I don’t have answers for those yet. I know when I started this several years ago I wanted to be led by the Holy Spirit to do whatever He asked of me. Whether that is writing here or doing things in real life for His Kingdom than so be it. I’d love to be a sow-and-so. Meaning, to “sow” God’s word and not be known for doing it (so-and-so). We’ll see how the Lord leads. For now, I would like to tell you as far as I know:
Discernment IS knowing God’s word.
Discernment IS knowing the difference between good and evil by using God’s Word, His Doctrine ,as the guideline.
Discernment IS the work of the Holy Spirit in us given to us by the Holy Spirit alone and points back to God’s commandments, statutes, and His wonderful hand of Mercy and Love, that cannot be imitated by anyone else!
10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom: and the knowledge of the holy is understanding. Proverbs 9:10
12 For when for the time ye ought to be teachers, ye have need that one teach you again which be the first principles of the oracles of God; and are become such as have need of milk, and not of strong meat.
13 For every one that useth milk is unskilful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe.
14 But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil. Hebrews 5:12-14